Don't know what you want to be when you grow up? That's okay

One of the scariest questions I faced during my senior year of college was: "What do you want to be when you grow up?"

That's because I had no idea.

It was senior year, after three years of trudging up Science Hill to dutifully attend classes to fulfill pre-med requirements, when I finally admitted to myself and my parents that I really didn't want to be a doctor. Didn't love the science classes, didn't love the idea of treating patients, didn't love the idea of being in a lab doing research. Not exactly a great fit for the 4 plus how many ever additional years of training and money I'd need to spend to stick an MD after my name.

With my everlasting gratitude, my parents didn't faint or hector me back onto the track. For those of you of Asian descent or with tiger parents, this was a big deal. And as my parents are also both doctors and most of their friends were also doctors, this was a VERY big deal.

How I looked when trying to figure out what
I'd do for the rest of my life.
Different outfit though.

Instead, they asked: so what do you want to do instead? Panicked, I went to my college career services office, tried to figure out what color my parachute was, and stumbled into an article that described management consulting as being a doctor for businesses.

It was simply because I could relate to that description, y'know the "doctor" part, that I wandered into my first real job... in management consulting. And that led to starting a publication with a friend, eating a lot of tunafish sandwiches,  morphing the newsletter biz into an Internet business, eating even more tunafish sandwiches, and eventually landing venture capital backing with another friend. That funded our ticket to participate in that unique comedic drama known as dot-com bubble, with an eventual sale to a pretty big company. Surprising many people, including myself, I've stayed with that buyer and now find myself running one of its divisions with offices in the US and UK, and with colleagues around the world. [exhale]

Long story short, I would have NEVER predicted the career that I have today. And I'd say that many of my friends would not have been able to predict their current careers or the journeys they have taken to get there.

If you are struggling to figure out the answer to the BIG question of what you want to be when you grow up, don't get too paralyzed trying to answer it. Instead, just start exploring options, ask questions and learn all you can about those jobs and yourself. Hopefully, something will resonate and feel like the right thing to do and you'll give it a try. And so your career will begin -- your first dot along a journey that will have certainly its ups and downs but should always teach you something about what you like and don't like, what you're good at and what you're not so good at, and what you want to try next.

Steve Jobs nailed it with his Stanford commencement speech when he said "you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life." It's not easy to hear when you're not sure of where your dots will be or how they'll connect, but as my mother always says, "everything will come out just fine." I've found as I've accumulated more dots, she and Steve are absolutely right.

One caveat: No matter what dot you're at along your career journey,  go for it. Try hard to succeed. That way, you can reach your dot's boundary sooner and decide whether you want to stay, get to the next level, or decide it's not for you and move on to your next dot. Half-hearted efforts are uninspiring to yourself and everyone around you. (And yes, we can tell.) If you find that you're not giving it a full effort, figure out why that's happening and do something about it. Address it by changing your work situation or moving on.

"What do you want to be when you grow up?" is one of the few questions that you will hear throughout your life from well-meaning relatives, friends and even yourself. That's okay because do you really want to do the same thing from the age of 20, 30 or even 50 or 70? And so to that pervasive question, here's my answer: I'm looking forward to finding out.

Conversation starters: What did you want to be when you grew up and what journey have you taken? What advice would you give to others facing that journey of building and connecting dots?